Second post in one day? Whaaaaat???

Stolen from a friend, who stole it from someone else. Gosh, I love things like that!
If I wasn't myself, but...
... a month: September
… a day of the week:Wednesday
… a time of the day: 11 pm
… a planet: uranus (haha, might be influenced by Sailor Moon here)
… a sea animal:whale
… a direction: left!
… a number: 9
… a piece of clothing: a pair of worn out jeans
… a piece of jewelry: one ring to rule them all... just kidding. A piercing at a weird place.
… a cosmetic-thingy: Jesus, did I really say I love things like this? Just.. something not too girly, I guess.
… a flower or plant: Rosemary
… liquid: rain
… a tree: an apple tree
… a bird: a stork
… a piece of furniture: bed
… weather: summer rain
… a mythical creature:a sphinx
… an animal: a spotted hyena or a cat
… a color: green
… an element: iron
… a car: an old VW-bus
… a song: It's hard not just to pick one of my favorite songs, but a song that I think is like me. "Silk Road" by Kitaro.
… a movie: a documentary about a serial killer
… a movie character: Magenta from the Rocky Horror Picture Show
… a character from a book: Alanna from the lioness-series by Tamora Pierce. At least that's the character I identified with most so far (even though I was 8 or something the first time I read it, so it might not be an up to date picture of myself)
… a mood: calm
… a body part: eyes
… a facial expression: looking sceptical
… a subject at school: math
… an item: a book
… a word: alas
… a feeling: being on edge
… unhealthy snack? (Knabbergebäck, lacking a good translation): a home made cheese cookie (it's not sweet, but salty and, well, with cheese, and delicious)
… a sport: wrestling (I would be terrible at wrestling, but for some reason I feel like that would be me)
… a drink: coffee
… ice cream favor: chocolate-chili
… a fairytale: nothing with a prince who saves the girl, that's for sure... um... "the story of the youth who went forth to learn what fear was"
… a toy: a Rubik's cube
… a country: Tuvalu (a little country that will be gone when the sea leven rises - Vanitas!)

had a dream...

... you and me in the war at the end times.   . . . not really, but I felt like quoting it.

Anyway, I did have a dream, which was again pretty stressful and not very pleasant. After I dreamed about a friend of mine being pregnant and alone with me (aside from jerks who didn't pay attention to her at all) when she suddenly started to have her baby and me being unable to reach anyone on the phone - neither her boyfriend nor an ambulance -, today's dream was about my family.
For some reason my sister, my mom and my dad, who was still alive even though it wasn't in the past, made a trip to this place called Gleichberg near the town where I grew up. It's a mountan that has the remains of a celtic settlement and the ruin of a christian church on it and a lot of beautiful nature around it. While we were there it started raining like crazy, so my mom and I wanted to go back. My dad and my sister, however, wanted to stay, so we just left without them. When we were home, which looked completely different from any place I ever lived, we watched the news and saw lightning striking the woods at the Gleichberg and starting a fire. At the same time, the news anchor (who by the way looked like that woman who did the interview with Charlie Sheen in which he told he wasn't bi polar but bi-winning) reported that there was so much rain, that mudslides were expected. My mom started crying and I got in the car to go back to the Gleichberg and find my sister and my dad. When I got there it was the middle of the night and I couldn't really find my way. I was calling my sister and at least she called back and then came running to me - I was only halfway up the hill by then. She was very scared and told me she didn't know where my dad was. Shortly after that, however, he came down the mountan on a bike. When he wanted to stop he was to fast and it was to muddy, so he crashed into tree. I was just glad that both of them were safe, but we still had to get back home. When we were in the car, there was suddenly (but not surprisingly in the dream) a friend, Anna-Lena, who used to live next door for a while when we were kids, in the car, too. My dad, who was driving, wanted to take her home but she just asked "how many kilometers is it till Nürnberg?". My dad answered and she said "okay, let me out, I'll walk" - which is ridiculuous. It's 100 km or something. But she wouldn't change her mind so at last my dad pulled over and let her out.

The whole dream stressed me out. Besides that, I slept longer than I expected and am still in a bad mood. Lately I feel like university sucks, I want to quit it and want to do something completely different. Something less think-y. All this academic stuff is just a bunch of people wasting money for fun and for making their careers. A lot of the stuff psychologists (who do science) do is interesting at all but I don't see the point at all. Of course that's not true for all of science or even for all of psychology, but I'm just in a "meh, leave me alone"-mood these days. I would rather open a Café.

Facebook is effing creepy!

Sometimes facebook really creeps me out. Today it suggested that I might know a person, which I do know but I have NO idea how facebook could possibly know that. She worked at the kindergarten where one of kids I took care of when I was Au-pair went to and I talked to her a couple of times while I was there. But I have never been in contact with her since that time (2007), I'm not friends with anyone she is friends with on facebook and it looks like she doesn't even live and work where she used to live and work. The only person I'm friends with at all from Sweden is the mother of the family I stayed with and there is no connection at all between them. How can this possibly happen? And it gets even creepier: just yesterday I was thinking about people from Sweden that I could add as friends on facebook and briefly thought about her. But neither could I remember her exact name, nor did I really want to look for her as we weren't friends back then or anything. I literally just had one quick thought about her. HOW CAN FACEBOOK READ MY MIND???!!?

Concert fail

So yesterday this girl and I wanted to go and see Cut Copy in Berlin. Let me tell you how that went: It started (unknown to me) when she wanted to buy the tickets. For some reason she couldn't find them anywhere except on a very dodgy website - which she realized only later when doing some research and finding out that a lot of people had never received their tickets nor their money back. Anyway, the next day (yesterday) she got a call from the people of said website that they didn't have any tickets anymore but (and that was very nice) that they weren't sold out at some other website, where the girl bought them eventually. Alright, so she picks me up at about half past 6 and we're still in Dresden, when this old guy decides that it's not really necessary to stop at a red traffic light, even though the car before you is stopping, and - BOOM! - rear end collision. Nothing serious had happened, we were just a bit shocked. Luckily the police had been there anyway and had seen the whole thing, but still... we had to wait for some other cops and then talk to them etc, which took about an hour. We decided to go to Berlin nevertheless, even though we will probably be about an hour late. Neither of us had any idea where we were supposed to go in Berlin, but we had a google maps description of where to go. Unfortunately, once we got off the highway and took the first few turns we were somewhere completely different. None of the street names around us where the ones shown on the google map thingy. Of course we didn't have a map of Berlin either so - what where we supposed to do - just drove around trying to get to some place that was shown on the little map-thingy of our description. We did that for about half an hour, when suddenly I saw the name of a street that seemed familiar and YES, it was on the map - weirdly enough it was the first street we should have been in after leaving the highway. Anyway we got to the place way too late and were only able to see the last three songs that the band played, but I'm still amazed that we got there at all.

Vacation

So I just came back from my annual trip to Austria with my family and god, I needed that vacation. I had this horrible, horrible exam just before I left. I literally studied 12-14 hours each day for it and I'm not happy with the result at all. It still bothers me.
Nevertheless it was great to get away from Dresden and everything for about a week and spend some time with my Mom and my sister - well, I live with my sister, so I spend time with her every day, but usually we're both busy with the stuff that we do so a vacation is different. We went skiing in Schattwald, which is a little village in Austria. We've been going to the same bed and breakfast place there since I was 11 and my Mom used to go there with her parents until my sister was born. I just love it there. The whole house always smells like coffee and the woman who runs the place is such a sweetheart. My sister and I gave her the name "Igelfrau" (which could be translated to "Lady hedgehog") when we were kids because her face kind of looks like the face of a hedgehog - a nice hedgehog!
We were extremely lucky with the weather, too. It started snowing the day we got there, kept snowing for the next two days followed by two days of beautiful sunshine. It was perfect. We went skiing all day and played a lot of settlers in the evenings.
The other guests there are worth mentioning, too. They've been coming there forever as well so we already knew them. They are an interesting mixture of annoyingly loud, sweet and annoyingly ignorant. It's a group of three couples from different places in North Rhine Westphalia and some of them have the worst accent! They're all pretty old, narrow minded and read the BILD. The women like to discuss church and housekeeping while the men discuss soccer and play Skat (a very traditional German card game). On the other hand the women are very caring and the men let me play Skat with them, which I love, but which hardly anyone ever plays with me - it's a great game but somehow the only people who realize that except for me are men older than 60. Well, but of course they couldn't play with me without making remarks about how we should play for clothes. All of them are such a cliché (and one that I don't particularly fancy) but nevertheless I'm kind of sad that they probably won't be there the next time we go there. I had just gotten used to them!
Anyway, I had a great time and feel now at least kind of ready for the probably stressful march that awaits me. But a lot of it is good stress. Just also work. But no studying till 12 at night. Yay! :)

Feeling particularly well today!

Things have taken a very nice turn lately.
The most important one for me right now is that I will be doing the internship required for my graduation this fall in freaking Boulder, Colorado!!!!!!111oneeleven
I'm really, really, really excited about this. And again it shows how often things just.. happen. Without really planning it. It so just happened that a professor from that university gave a talk at my university because he knows someone there and was on his way to finland (which is so very close to Germany... ... if you are from the US). Anyway, the person he knows happens to know the guy who is the supervisor of my thesis and invited him to come and he in turn invited me to come. First I didn't even wanna go because it wasn't a public talk and I thought it would be weird to go, but I went anyway and the talk was really interesting. Also, I felt that the comments I made and questions I asked where intelligent enough to make a good first impression so I was daredevil enough to ask him for an intership - and it worked! Wow. I'm so glad I did it even though I was nervous and felt quite bold.
We still have to sign a contract and I have to get a visa and find somewhere to stay and so on, so there are plenty of things that could go wrong, but please keep your fingers crossed that it won't, because I really, really, really wanna do this!

Moreover, someone asked me whether I wanted to be part of a group of young artists who run a gallery in the baroque part of Dresden, or at least show some of my pictures there. Unfortunately I haven't really been painting or drawing since I moved to Dresden, so I don't have any new artworks. But as I don't want to waste this opportunity, I'm going to work on that - but that has to wait until march/april. It also gives me a reason to paint again, which is something I've been wanting to do for a while now but which never was important enough, so I always ended up doing other things instead. But I'm full of ideas!


Other than than I'm still really busy with university related things, but the events of the last weeks make me happy which in turn gives me more energy for the tasks ahead. So I'm not gonna complain. Everything looks very peachy right now.

Not feeling particularly well today...

Sometimes I have this overwhelming feeling of not being able to cope with my life - or more specific: with my studies - at all. I feel that there is so much to do and there is just no way that I will be able to do all of it in a way that I'm satisfied with. Right now there are to exams ahead, one of which is super-important and the other one, that is just 3 days before that one, is also really important because both of them will partly determine my final grade - the one first mentioned will actually be 1/8 of my final grade. This is usually enough to freak me out anyway, but then there is also my thesis, which I am kind of starting, or not, I don't know, because everything isn't very organized and I don't really get what the guy wants from me or where he wants to go with the whole project. He's a great guy and he basically treats me like an equal, which I think is a good thing, but which is also kind of overwhelming and stressing me out. I don't feel competent enough for that. And then we agree on things I should do and when I get home I realize that I don't have any idea what exactly those things mean and I'm scared that everything I do is wrong. Moreover there are like five million other things I have to do for university - well, not five million obviously but I have a presentation next week which has to be finished on friday (today is wednesday) and I have literally not even read through the papers and stuff we are supposed to use. Plus, one of the people who is doing the presentation with me isn't even in town right now and will come back, like, one day before the actual presentation or something. Also, I have to present an interview I had to do next week and also hand in a 4-8 pages final report for another class, which I still have to write completely. And somehow I have to find time in between to study for those two exams in february. I already started to study for one of them in november or something and I haven't even worked through 1/3 of the content. How am I supposed to do the rest in 1 1/2 super stressfull months???